Christmas eve... Thanking god for all he's done for me this year.He's brought me back to church and brought shelby back wtih me. ITs only been 2 weeks since we've went back. But shelby and i have decided to get babtized!!!!!! We're gonna do it together. Sister's under the eyes of our father once and for all. I'm truely excited and i do believe i have changed. i know i have made a lot of bad choices and mistakes but i do not regret them and i have learned from them. i honestly don't think i'll make these mistakes again. briging in the new year i am also bringing in a new and better me. thanks to all who have helped me learn from this year, whether ir be good or bad, and MERRY CHRISTMAS TO ALL AND ALL A GOOD NIGHT!!!!!!!!! lol

well... Charity's funeral today was so very beautiful. I cried so hard. My heart goes out to Britnee and Chase. Also for hwe whole family. but Britnee and Chase were so close to me... THey are at such a young age to lose someone that close and dear to their hearts. I love them all so very much. Charity will forever live on in our hearts and in the air, the sky, the moon, the sun, and the earth. She was such a great person. Her love will forever carry on. She was such a beautiful and wonderful young woman. She is amazing in everyway. I just wish i could do more for Britnee and Chase. They loved their mom so very much. And her poor daughter Kaylee.. and her husband... :*( (tears) My problems may seem so large to me... But they are NOTHING in comparison to Charity's family's. They carry the biggest burdon of all. They are all in my hearts and rayers. I hope they are okay But then again no one can be okay in a time of remorse and grief like they are.... I love you Brit and chase. Chairty will forever be in our hearts.

*Christmas is coming (SOON)!!!! *ii'm soo [excited]! && besides that,, ii've been better! *yayy! talkin *actually makes me [feel] "better" than before. lol ii hung out with ((Shelby)) over the weekend and we had *SOOOO Much [fun];; we went "shopping!!! XD XD XD lol well;; not much time tonight. lol *buh bye;,,

Well;; today was *better ii guess you could ((say)). My "boyfriend" still *hasn't talked to me and its been;; A MONTH!!! [school] was GREAT! Had funn and (skipped) the *end of 4th! But,, my *STUPID 4th block "teacher WENT THREW MY STUFF! ii mea;; ii got *outta class for (p cubed pictures) and just *skipped the rest. My frend,, Jerrikka,, was gonna put my stuff in my *locker for [me] cause I didn't know how long the picures would take and when ii left she asked Jerrikka to bring her mi stuff she she "could look for something" ! Aren't teachers ((NOT)) allowed to go threw students stuff!!!!??? ii mean;;; ii am MAD!!! lol;; whatevs. lol. Gottsta go.. Bii!!!!

Well;; this week so far has been fun. . . Sick. Feel like crap. Head hurts. Why is things so complicated? I mean;; love? Can't it be you find your *true love ((early)) in life? With like;; no complications? And why;; Why is there ((false)) true loves? Why can't it be a (yes) and a (no). It either *i have feelings for you;; *i don't;; *i love you;; *i don't... And then there is *i thought i loved you;; *its not you its me;; And why does parents and the "law" get to choose who you can and *cannot date? I mean;; The ((age)) limit thing?? Its (completely) stupid! Well to *me it is! I mean;; come on!! (Four) years isn't much of a difference! If you have *feelings for ((one another)) then why wait til your both *not a "minor" to try it out? You *never know until you try right? I mean;; isn't that what everyone says? There is only *ONE simple solution to all this. I mean;; that I can think of at this moment;; *give up! I mean;; thats all I wanna do *anymore. Its totally crazy. This *so called "life" is so complicated and weird. Like;; why does it have to be this way? *I dunno... *You tell *me...